Love

I have found that the hardest days of my life come from waiting for love in my life to begin. I have also found that the best days of my life come from those days where I have had love but have not yet found it. Now I believe some of the best days of my life will come when love in my life has finally arrived. Love is hard to find but I hope it is just around the corner waiting for me and ready to say I love you, I have always loved you, now let us finally begin our lives together. Love is the greatest thing of all, so after all of this time don't I deserve to finally find love and fall in love and have my love finally be realized. After all the hoping, after all the yearning, after all the faith I have had in love all I can now believe is that love will be coming right away to find me and I will know that I am now alive.

Life in the making

All I want is love sometimes. All I want is freedom sometimes. All I want is to break down the despairs of yearning and go out and find the life that I always wanted and start living it. I want to fall in love, deep passionate love, the one kind of love that everyone dreams of and hopes for, the kind that life was meant to be all about. Where is love in the world today? Where can I find the love I have always wanted, and yet seems to elude me? It seems to be out there and so close, and yet I still cannot grasp it. Where can I find it and when can this journey of love and life begin, and when I am allowed to enjoy the sweet savor of the joys of life that I have missing out on my whole life?

New line

"During my life I found out find that the best days of my were those spent living my life."

Brian

Finding love and life amidst waiting for love and life

I have found that whilst waiting for love and life to begin I have to find love and life somehow amidst all of this waiting around for it to come. We all search, strive, and ponder for the next best thing to come but while we are waiting what do we do to live the life we are in right now? Look at it in a positive way and you'll be ok but the waiting just makes it that much better! I want so much and need so much that it is hard to find joy in life while you are waiting for that life to begin! Whilst I am waiting I have found that the joy is in the journey and you have only have one life to live, so let's get going. I find love from afar, life whilst I am waiting in the love from afar, and hope and faith continue on this crazy journey we call life. I want to love my life and I so do at times, but I don't at times, and that is the problem within itself, I want to love my life all the time! Let us continue to find love in life, and let us find faith in the journey within itself, all knowing that it will work itself out, and the life you have always wanted will begin as soon as possible, and I know that this has to start soon, well because there is only one life to live.

Thank you for your time, signing off for today, Brian Robert Gardner

What makes the world go round?

We all fly, move at a different pace. Don't we? We all learn, grow at a different pace. So let us grow, learn, and learn to be at peace with another. We all should strive to love more, hurt less. We all should learn to work together more, and learn to have more faith in each other. Let us strive for that hope, that faith, that love that only works when we do it together. Learn to let it be, and learn to love each other more. We are all afraid at times, so why can't we learn to share secrets that will ease our pain and our heartaches in a way that says let us live for today. I hope to find my peace amidst this world of turmoil in a sense of joy that says can't wait to meet you.

Happiness

What is it to you? For me my search for happiness lands on one word: health. For others it may differ, but all of us are searching after the same thing aren't we? Happiness is the ultimate search, for some it may come easily, for others not so much. Happiness is infectious, it spreads like wildfire, then it lands at home - where it should be and where you can always find it, and that it is where hope resides. I see it everywhere, in a beautiful smile for one, and in a true friend for another. Where in the world can you find your own happiness, well the search continues for some and for others the search has ended because they are free of their own demons and have reached a place of serenity and peace.

Well I am signing for today - from Brian

Love

As we continue on in this crazy journey we call life, I am truly seeking for peace, serenity, and something that I have never truly had, and that is love. As a 30 year old man I wonder why is it so elusive? Why is it so hard to find all the time? I wonder if it will hit me or will I have to go out and find it. I want somebody who loves me for me, not just someone who falls head over heals for me after I chase her for a while. I want our love to be mutual, not just someone who I have to chase around the world to get, and I truly hope I can find it soon. It is something that seems to elude me and yet something that I want so badly. All I ever look for in this life is pure clean health, a truly happy fulfilled life, and again well someone to fall in love with. I look, I search, I ponder and yet I can only hope that one day soon I will find someone who loves me for me and someone who understands me and trusts me. I wonder after all these years of chasing that maybe the tables can turn and a woman can find me and we can mutually fall in true love. I believe I deserve that after so many heartbreaks, and so many times waiting for the phone to ring, and so many times wanting it so bad, and yet it continues to be just out of my reach. A love that can be found in a way that will truly knock me off my feet and lye me down and I can turn to her and not have to say one word, and we can both just know that this is just right. It is right in the moment, it is right when we are not together, and it is just right all the time. I yearn for that day to come quickly so I can learn to love and so I can stop hoping for it come, and after all these years that it will just be there whenever I need it. And as the clock continues to turn, I continue to wonder how much longer until I find that woman who just knows as much as I do that love can truly change a person in a way that is indescribable and just knows for once and for all that we love each other so much that nothing needs to be said. All we have to day is look into each other's eyes and just know that is what life is all about. Sometimes the waiting is the hardest part. But all I know is that I have hope and that this love will truly begin in my life at the exact moment it is supposed to, and in that moment I will want to sing hallelujah all the way home after our lips touch, our hearts beat as one, and after we both just say, I love you.

What are we waiting for?

When you get depressed where do you go to find solace, peace of mind and a little hope? I go to a friend, to a place where no can find me, and still it's very hard to find a moment of peace amidst this world of so much well, fear. Where in the world are my fiends and why can't we meet? A happy moment, a sad one, an emotional one, and well what do you get, a day in the life of Brian Gardner for one. It's time for a change in my life and all I need to know is where do I go when it's time to leave the past behind and head fora brighter future, well I don't know, and if I did I would not still be typing this blog, I would be out living my life instead of hoping for it to change.

At the end of the day

Once we look back on life, what will say? What was it all about? Well it was about love, it was about regrets, and well it was about the journey. The joy is in the journey, and the end result, it can be about both, and yet all we need to know is that if we keep hoping and never start living then we will have never really learned how to accept and enjoy the ups and downs of life while learning that life is about dancing in the rain while waiting for the rain to stop and the sun to start shining. Rainbows will come, the rain will dry and once it does glorify in it, love it, live it, and always remember what got you there.

Life and Love

Love is beauty, love is hope, love is all knowing, all forgetting, all love might be summed up in one sentence and that is complicated. I hope and yearn for love, I look for it, search for it, and one day hope to find it, where I'm not sure all I know is it might be somewhere closer or farther than I think. I look around and see beauty and love but I cannot grasp it, sense it, touch it, it eludes me, it's like it wants to touch me feel me hold me, and yet I cannot grab hold, I just wait and wait and one day I hope it will find me while I am dreaming of someone to touch me and take me on the ride of my life.

"Fashion fades, style lasts forever" Eves Saint Laurent

I was watching Breakfast at Tiffany's again today and I could not imagine a more beautiful woman than Ms. Audrey Hepburn. Her ease, her beauty, her fluidity, her style, her serenity was unimaginably good. I believe style and fashion can change the world, it has power and it is truly inspirational. If you look closely you can see well beauty that goes beyond the outside and flows into the inside. Look at that beautiful woman and see a little smirk sometimes that says if you be happy then you will be beautiful. Be healthy, be happy, be wondrous, be who you truly are then you will be truly beautiful. I want and wish for all the world where we look at each other and say wow you make me feel happy and I want that in my life. Audrey inspired the world and I love her for it, and I always will. Style, beauty, ease, serenity, don't we all seek it, don't we all desire it, don't we all find it to be well inspirational to the point that we say thank you Audrey we love you, we miss you, we hope you are well, well then let's bring that style back! She is an inspiration to me and all I have to say is thank you for your beauty. I try to bring that into my life and go from there. Just feel the flow and the rhythm of an Audrey and might just find that you've got all you need right within yourself, so go seek it, find it, and let it fly.

What matters in life?

When things don't matter in life, they tend to be the best part of life. When you reach serenity you tend to find that life is better than you could ever think it could be, You don't say I wish or I hope you say thank God I have made this far and have accomplished so much. Do you tend to be grateful? Do you look at life differently and say I have accomplished enough let's move on or do you tend to say I don't care anymore. I look at life and say why do I care so much? Why do I give a fuck? Let us all take a look around and say does this matter? To me it does to others it doesn't.

Love in the real world

Where I have found love is in the journey of life. With the ups and downs we find that love can hold us up even when we are in dire need of real love. I look to friendship for love, not always for physical and sexual love to be the love that might be the kind of love you need right now. What we need is always not what we desperately want, but it can can help us get to where we have always and will always want. First we find friendship then we find best friends then we find what has always been wanted by friends who are far away yet so close. I desire love, true love, yet cannot always or really be had, it is a hard balance but it can be dealt with by having a friend who truly loves you for who you are and who you will be. Friendship can heal wounds, lift barriers, give hope, and help you find who you truly are amidst a relationship that hasn't yet begun.